First trimester woes during pregnancy are by no means a new struggle, but it really sucks a whole bunch.
You may have seen my previous blog post where I revealed just how Daniel and I told our family that we were finally expecting our very own Player 3!
If you haven’t checked it out, there’s an adorable video where you can watch my family freak out, cry and generally celebrate with us. It’s super cute.
At the time of making the big reveal, I was only about 5 or 6 weeks pregnant. The euphoria of finally expecting was strong and the full effects of the first trimester had not yet hit. But boy was I in for a surprise…
The Reality of the First Trimester
Now before I continue, let me start off by saying that EVERY PREGNANCY IS DIFFERENT. Every woman is different and therefore every first trimester will be different.
For me, personally, the first trimester SUCKED. Like really and truly sucked.
I was basically this dog for about 6 weeks straight. And again, I know that things could’ve been a whole lot worse and that some women go through hell for an entire 9 months. But I can’t write their blog posts, now can I?
But I can tell you all about my experiences and what I experienced now that I’m out of the first trimester and feeling (somewhat) like myself again.
1. First Trimester Morning Sickness Is the Worst
It’s obvious that no one enjoys throwing up on a regular basis. If you do, please seek medical attention, because it’s the living worst!
I’m a particularly terrible vomiter in that it’s a super violent experience that my body fights every single second. Like it’s never easy. Ever. But let me tell you, being nauseous and/or vomiting for a month straight had m
I love to eat and the fact that my body betrayed me every second of the day was basically torture. I cried often purely from being frustrated with my own body. It sucks.
The great news is that at exactly 11 weeks, it just stopped. Gone. Nothing. Like some sort of crazy magic. Yaaaas!
2. Having to Eat Constantly Is Tiring
Considering my first point, this one is a doozy. In order to keep the nausea to a minimum, you basically need to snack nonstop.
But when you’re feeling a lovely shade of green, eating is almost impossible. Then that makes you feel even worse. Which can only be remedied by eating. But you really don’t want to. Etc etc and so on forever.
Get where I’m going with this? It’s madness. Food becomes a chore and that’s really sad.
3. The Bloating Is Simply Ridiculous
Oh my goodness, the bloating! I don’t think every pregnant woman experiences this wonderful symptom in the first trimester, but this drove me nuts.
My stomach bloated and made me feel even more sick with crazy gas cramps that had me in tears. Then to add to salt to that wound, I picked up a stomach virus that had me at the doctor. It’s no fun but a hot water bottle did a world of good.
Basically, do what ever you have to do to survive, mama!
4. The Movies are a LIE
Ha! Curse those moving pictures and their flights of fancy!
Everything you’ve ever seen in a movie about the first trimester of pregnancy is a lie. The gentle barfing in the morning, the ability to continue to be a regular human being, the ability to run and exercise and enjoy life is a lie.
At least, it wasn’t that way for me. I pretty much spent 24 hours a day trying to keep my head above water while working from my bed. Fun!
5. Fear Is Ever Present and No Fun at All
This one is something I never saw coming. It goes above and beyond the physical issues that pop up when you finally fall pregnant.
The ever-present fear that haunted my brain day and night was exhausting and my number one fear was that I would miscarry. I have so many wonderful people in my life who have lost little ones before ever getting to meet them and the fear in my head told me I’d be next.
Every cramp, every twinge, every possible complication had me sweating in fear. Nightmares about losing the baby I’d longed for while frantically Googling every possible symptom when awake. It’s nothing short of a curse.
And it’s completely normal.
Throughout all of this, I had to keep myself focused on one thing: I’m having a baby. Finally, at long last, after 3 years of waiting.
All of the above made that a VERY hard task, so of course, I felt horribly guilty any time I dared to moan or complain. The brain is a crazy place, y’all. Especially on baby hormones!
I know that all of this may sound super negative and that’s exactly how I felt at the time. But now, let me tell you, there’s light at the end of that tunnel. Suddenly, the world is brighter, scarier, and more exciting than ever.
I can’t guarantee that I’ll always feel bright and cheery about being pregnant, but in the moments that I can enjoy it, that’s exactly what I’ll do.
Thanks for checking in and I’ll chat to you all soon!
Robi (and #BabyBean)