And why this pregnancy means so much…
If you follow me on social media, you’ll know that I recently made a huge announcement! It’s also the reason (mostly) that I’ve been so quiet here…
After more than 3 years of trying, hoping and praying, I found out that I’m pregnant! It was a shock to say the least, I will admit. But let me explain why.
Why this pregnancy means so much
As I mentioned, Daniel and I officially decided to start trying for a baby a little over 3 years ago. I had high hopes of falling pregnant within a matter of months and making the big announcement. I had it all planned out and the excitement levels were high!
Unfortunately, life never really goes the way we expect it to, does it?
For months, there was no sign of babies. Every pregnancy test came back negative and each month I felt my heart sink. And then my dad died. It was sudden and I’ve shared about it a lot on social media. It’s actually the 3rd anniversary of his death today.
It was a huge blow. The need to fall pregnant suddenly felt more urgent than ever. I had this drive to make everyone happy by making a big announcement. But again. Nothing went my way.
Trying and failing to fall pregnant took it’s toll and I felt myself give up. I packed away the baby clothes, gave away a couple of “pregnancy” dresses I had in my cupboard, it was over. I had assumed that Daniel and I would simply adopt or not. Whatever. It was okay. I was okay.
On the 21st of July 2018, I decided to pee on a stick once more (as I often did) and to my utter and complete surprise, two lines appeared.
I walked out of the bathroom, stunned, and said to Daniel who was lounging on the bed: “Babe. It’s positive.” Just as surprised, Daniel replied: “It’s what?” Basically we had both just assumed it was not possible. Because after 3 years, who would think that it would actually happen at all?!
At the time I was only about 5 weeks pregnant and we went to see a doctor (after I took an additional 3 pregnancy tests) and it was confirmed. I’m expecting. Knocked up. Preggers. It actually happened!
Fast forward a couple of weeks and we couldn’t wait any longer. It was time to tell the family. And I knew exactly what I wanted to do.
The set up
I told everyone to come over to our house after church on Sunday, a normal occurrence that happens most weeks anyway. I told them all that we’d get food and watch bad movies. Because, everyone should watch Sharknado.
Before we settled in, I told the family that I had just acquired a new tripod for my phone and wanted to take a family photo. Again, they all groaned because this is not unusual for me and they all agreed to stand and smile for me. Such good chickens.
I had them all stand and pose. Took a couple of “test shots” while I set the camera to video mode and quickly ran to stand with them “before the timer went off”. The resulting video is gold!
I’ve watched it a hundred times already and the reactions are all perfect. My mom is super calm as she already knew and had to keep it hush-hush!
Watch the video here:
To the future!
I’m now a few days away from the second trimester (14 weeks) and while the start was ROUGH (I’ll write more about that later), I’m enjoying it so much.
I have a baby bump and everything! Here’s to the future with #BabyBean and all I do now is pray that this baby will be healthy and whole. Every single day.
The large number of people who prayed for this to happen and who pray for #BabyBean every day warms my heart. Truly. I know that without those prayers, this pregnancy wouldn’t be possible.
I can’t wait to see what the future holds. Even the rough parts, I’m okay with it. I’m ready (sort of). And I’ve received so much support, that I know I’ll be just fine.
Robyn and #BabyBean